I came to see Larry because of the nightmares and PTSD I suffered after my husband took his life. I couldn’t walk into my basement without seeing his body lying there on the cold ground, right in front of the washer and dryer I had to use once a week. At night, I relived that terrible night in my dreams and would wake up wailing or screaming. I could barely get out of bed and go to work. I considered moving from my home of 22 years at that time, but it felt wrong to just try to run away. And since I would have to take my mind and memories with me anyway, it seemed pointless to put myself through another major life-change. I even considered ending my own life.
I was dubious about the treatment at first, I admit. I’d been to see several therapists and psychologists, and was taking Valium and anti-anxiety medications at the time, but nothing helped, and I was afraid of getting addicted to them. I wanted to try something different. ANYthing that might have a chance of working.
During my first session, I told him about what was happening to me. He was very compassionate and kind, and I felt safe and understood. Even being in his presence was relaxing to me. He made several suggestions using visualization about the basement where my husband died. I also said goodbye and told him I loved him. The very next day, when I went down to do my laundry, I no longer “saw” him lying on the ground. I thought of him, but in a different way. I felt free and at peace. He was free, too. After only one session with Larry.
I went to see Larry again several times after that, including once 3 years later, when I was considering beginning a romantic relationship with an old friend who was courting me. I was afraid and anxious again, this time about opening my heart to another person. I also felt unfaithful to my late husband for some reason. Larry’s kind and wise words helped me overcome my fears and doubts and gave me clarity. I was able to reach out into life and love again, and accept the gift being offered to me.
Today I feel strong and heart-healthy again. I can get up in the morning without my heart clenching in grief. I can accept what life puts before me with grace and a peaceful heart. I am open to love and having a brand new life and future. I can laugh again! And at the beginning of the new year, I will be moving the place I’ve wanted to live since I was a child, with a new love, a new home, and new possibilities. It feels right at this point. I won’t be fleeing. I’m making a conscious decision from a place of clarity and peace.
Thank you, Larry, for all the help you have given me. I wouldn’t be here without you. Literally. Words cannot express all the gratitude I feel. Keep on doing your good work to help people live happy and fulfilling lives.
Gloria (Name changed for privacy)